my new favorite Myka face

she does this new thing where she closes her eyes, crinkles her nose and makes a mmmmmmmm sound...it's the cutest thing...
i've been trying for days to get it on camera, and here it is:

human or dancer?

so twice today this song was playing by the Killers in the car. i am actually a fan of the song...maybe because i like to dance...maybe because i like the Killers...i don't know, but it always makes me happy when i hear it.
so on my back to work after lunch, i was singing along, when i drove past one of my neighbors...
and in trying to get my attention he just started dancing on the side of the road...almost in beat with the song, but not really (good try though Chris)...
it made me smile, but then it made me think more about the song (my interpretation)...are we human? ie: going along with what everyone else is doing...or are we dancers? letting ourselves go, being out there...sometimes looking a little foolish?
i don't think i've been much of a dancer lately.

here's the song...listen to it...and dance.

ups and downs

so there are two parts to this post.
first the light-hearted one:
yesterday i returned to my exercising love...the pool...i jumped in (taking advantage of so cal's 80 degree weather in the middle of january)...first lap...great...i still love this...second lap...why did i stop, this feels so great...third lap...why did i stop, my arms are KILLING me...
all in all, i only swam 700 of the 1000m i was up to before, but still felt good that i made it that far. i did go to bed thinking maybe i'll go back tomorrow, and woke up feeling the lovely cold that my daughter has had all week taking root in the back of my throat...maybe i'll rest today.
and now the spiritual one:
my prayer and fasting has really been going great. within the first few days we got some answers about things that we were unsure of...and it truley was a HUGE blessing...but then there are days like today, where i just don't know what's going to happen and i'm honestly a little discouraged about it. i'm being reminded everyday that God is in control, he's never let us down, he's always provided...i just can't get past the wanting to have it all figured out stage.
let go and let God...i guess i'm still working on that one.

as promised...

Matt's birthday pic.
Happy Birthday to my best friend...love you more and more,
more than this time last year, and less than this time next year...love me.

etsy.

so i've blogged before about how adorable etsy is, and how easy it is for me to get lost forever on the website...
i came across these yesterday and they just made me smile, so i thought i'd share. taken from persimmonandpink's etsy shop.

Happy Birthday Daddy!

So yesterday was Matt's 31st birthday! We had a great time celebrating him...and then I got the bright idea to take a picture of Myka with a note that read "happy birthday daddy"...it didn't go so well.
I wrote it on an index card and gave it to her, which of course was immediately crumpled up...and as I was trying to get a picture of us and the note (we took several) all of a sudden the index card came flying into my face and the corner got me right in the eye. Needless to say we have a picture of me hunched over in pain. I think it actually scratched my eye because for the rest of the day every few hours it would tear up and hurt really badly. not fun. but here is the one picture we did get...without said death note...
and then we headed over to McCormicks & Schmicks for happy hour...where I successfully surprised Matt with a good group of friends. He had a blast, thanks everyone for loving on him and making his day special! (i'll post his bday pic with his awesome cheesecake that i made later)

2009...am I ready?

For those of you who have seen me in the past 3 months...you probably already know about my anxiety over 2009. Matt is graduating and I have no idea what to expect of all that is coming next.
We have some hopes, and some preferences...but mostly we know that we are committed to doing what God wants...however hard that may be.
That's why I've decided that for the month of January I will be praying and fasting...praying for our future, for the next step, for a job that would fit Matt well where he could grow and learn and invest...and fasting because it's that important to me that my heart and focus is right. It's that important that I lay aside my wants...and allow God the opportunity he needs to work in my heart and my dreams.
So, if you think about us...please pray with us. I know it's going to be a good month, and I can't wait to share more about this journey as we go through it.
Love.